Without Feeling 'You Are', Still You Exist!
Can you sit and just be quiet?
Can you sit and just be quiet? Yes, meditation. Time when you don't ask for anything and you
don't do anything. Such an apparently lazy way of spending time is highly regarded in
spirituality. It means that, for the time being, you are free from the obsession with "what
next."
When you are not in a hurry, your mind is free from anxieties. It becomes quiet, and in that
silence something may be heard which is ordinarily too fine and subtle for perception. You
observe with intent and curiosity to find out what that peace is. What you are actually doing by
meditation is bringing your mind into the right state for understanding reality.
You are brave for not worrying about your worries and you're ready for discovery. You do not try
to be quiet; you do not make "being quiet" into a task to be performed. You're not restless
about "being quiet" or miserable about thoughts. You just remain aware without saying: "yes, I
exist; what next?" There is no "next" in the meditation. It is a timeless state. It is being.
You are what you are, forever but of what use is it to you unless you act on it? You go around
the world always begging for something, mostly you want attention and recognition from others
but as long as you do not know your real being you miss the point. Know your inner worth, your
very existence, trust it and keep aware of it in your daily life.
Thoughts will linger in spite of your vision of being. The habit of longing for the known past
and fearing the unknown future is still there. You must be brave and have courage to go beyond.
As long as you have an idea about yourself as a name and body with a personality, you take
yourself to be what you are not.
To know yourself as you really are, give up idea that you are something.
As long as you are interested in your present way of living, You will not "see" your real being.
Discovery cannot come as long as you cling to the familiar. You realize fully the immense sorrow
of your life and you revolt against it.
There is nothing to learn. The learning is not what I am talking about. You may read spiritual
literature, know the theory but without the actual experience of yourself as the impersonal and
unqualified center of being, love and bliss, mere words and sterile knowledge are not enough.
Try to be, only to be. Being is your very existence. The all-important word is "try." allot some
time daily for sitting quietly and trying, just trying to go beyond the personality, with its
addictions and obsessions. Don't ask me how is done, it cannot be explained. Keep on trying
until you succeed. If you persevere, there can be no failure. What matters supremely is your
sincerity and earnestness. Are you really disgusted with being the person you are? Do you see
the urgent need of being free of this unnecessary identification with your memories? Steady
resistance against the unnecessary is the base for your new future
After all, you are what you are every moment of your life, but you are rarely aware of it, so
start with meditation. All you need is to be aware of being, not as a verbal statement but as an
ever-present fact in daily activities. The awareness will open your eyes to what you need to
see. It is all very simple. Constant meditation in all activities is the goal.
All dependence on the world and others is futile, for what others can give, others will take
away. Only awareness will remain in the end. Accept no guidance but from within. Nothing you
perceive is your own. Nothing of value can come to you from outside, from thoughts; it is only
your clear sense of existence that is relevant and revealing. Thoughts, words and meaning only
create images in your mind but you are not a mental image. You are the power of perception and
action behind and beyond the images.
Are you interested in others?. The others only enrich your own image of yourself which is
egoistic, self-concerned and self-oriented. The ultimate selfishness is to care only for the
protection, preservation, and multiplication of body. By body I mean all that is related to it,
your name and shape, your family country race, etc. To be attached to your name and shape is the
worst selfishness. If you really accept without shadow of doubt, that you are neither body nor
mind then you cannot be selfish for you have nothing to be selfish for.
So try again. Keep on trying, something may happen but if you don't, you're stuck. You know all
the right words, those quote in spiritual books or religious scriptures, you're brilliant in
philosophical discussions and yet without awareness of your being, you remain a bag of dead
bones.
What is your deepest, the final conviction, of who you are? Just as you're not clothes you wear,
similarly you're not this body. That is most important step. Slowly and effortlessly get rid of
identification with body. Your sense of "I" feels just like space - it is the beginning and end
of everything. Without Feeling 'You Are', You Still Exist!
From physical body and food you eat, you get knowledge "you are". On this you are" sense,
thoughts come through self-dialogue and involvement with others, the daily experiences. You
observe thoughts staying in the knowledge "you are". This is being.
The world is spontaneously happening inside your being. You are free from the world only by
seeing yourself in right manner, not as an individual. Finally you're realizing there are no
others, it is all one being - consciousness. Your individuality will slowly dissolve by constant
meditation, by being the one with "THAT" by which you know you exist.
