We've all heard these feel-good sayings: just trust the universe, surrender, let it go, be humble and let higher power be in control. And that stuff really feels good. It feels good to hear because life is exhausting. Life is tough. And we like to think that something higher than us is in control and has our best intentions at heart, and we can just surrender and go with the flow and we will reach a positive outcome with minimal effort. Sounds great. But is it true? More importantly, is it dangerous? What if this is just part of the system keeping us complacent and sheepish, in matrix mode? I think it is. Today I'm going to dive into the relationship between myself and the higher self and whether my purpose on Earth is to be divinely guided, or if I'm actually here to exercise free will and be a conscious agency. The higher self is driving awakening, but it is my own responsibility to break free from the chains of this institution which is the human Earth life experience. I know that the things I'm about to write actually contradict some of the things that I said in the past posts. However I have new information, new understanding, new experiences that drive me to this understanding. It is all about gaining control of my life, taking conscious control of my own destiny, becoming a conscious agent, and exercising my free will because I think that is the ultimate reason I am here. I started off by writing about some of the feel-good, woo-woo spirituality sayings that people toss around. You know, go with the flow, surrender, just trust the universe. And I'm not being sarcastic and saying that that spiritual stuff is not true. I'm not saying that there's not a higher power in our individual life and even in our collective life. I do think that those things exist. I am thinking of many so wasteful lives, like my mother's life, or life of Ljubica and Borisav. Just being here on Earth having a human life did not do anything for them. That's not the way life works. You have take responsibility for existence and try to connect with higher self. I can admire mentality that "it is all will of God", "higher power will take care for all that is needed" etc. but, is that responsible? It sounds good, God will provide, but is that what God wants? No one's coming to save us, but no one's coming to stop us either. We have unlimited potential, unlimited ceiling, unlimited scalability. And that's the beauty of having life. But we have to have this mentality. Hold on. What is going on here? Spirituality and meditation, self-realization, without knowledge, makes you a stupid saint. Does higher self have all the answers? Is next life deterministic? Like, here's where you're going to live, what you're going to be, your profession, your family. In this, where is the free will? So why are we here? If everything is deterministic and it's so tightly structured and controlled, why are we here? What is the point of this? Determinism blows the wheels off of the whole free will idea, right? Like, we're just playing a role in a movie that's already been scripted. This cannot be truth otherwise, what's the point of life? What's the business of me being here if my higher self is sort of omniscient and all-knowing and has already seen all this and already done it all? Is it simply for entertainment? And this is where life gets really, really interesting because if the goal is to escape from the reincarnation trap and to gather all pieces of our consciousness and graduate, to ascend, to be gone, be done with this cycle, then the whole concept of surrender, go with the flow, your higher self knows your path, do not make sense. Just coming into existence here to perform earthly duties and going back up, regrouping just to come back again and again is a bullshit story for ignorants. Truth may be quite different, maybe nuts, but it's also so profound. So, let's take that our higher self is the totality of all of our lives. We all go through reincarnation. However, our consciousness has existed before Earth, before we were ever human beings. We've had a whole bunch of these lifetimes. Our higher self is the totality of all that. It is the collective. It's an aggregate of all of our lifetimes, all dreams, thoughts and experiences, the totality of everything. But the totality of everything is the dormant and static information, they are not doing much, they are just storage of knowledge. It is important to say that higher self is static in the sense that it didn't have agency (the living, moving being). Now, we like to think that our higher self, because it's in the spirit world, it's not bound by the restraints of this physical matter reality, that it is going to have this access to the universe, to the greater non-physical universe. It's going to have knowledge and access and abilities and know things that we could possibly never know here, right? Well, what if that's not the case? If our higher self is the totality of all our lifetimes, and let's just think about it from a human point of view, the life we are living now might be the tip when it comes to knowledge and understanding. With the internet, AI and with all the information available at present there's a good chance that our human character right now, our human self, is the tip of the spear. And so if our higher self is the aggregate of all of our previous lifetimes on Earth, what's to say that it is all-knowing and omniscient? Like, why would it be more all-knowing than you? Like, it has a broader perspective, but you got to think how important this life is. This is where it gets wild. This human body is a physical anchor. When our higher self, when it streams into this physical body, it's now anchored in physical reality. What that does is it gives it agency. It gives it free will. It now has abilities that it doesn't have in the non-physical. Because when it's on the external, it is stored and in physical it moves. So our higher self, as it partitions a piece of itself and brings it into this physical world, anchored to a physical body, now it can pilot this physical body and it can express itself with free will and agency. Now, it can do many things on this physical world, but what is all about, right? What good does it do if it can come in here and just joyride, swim in the ocean, climb a mountain, play volleyball or whatever I want to do? That's fun, right? Fun experience. I can fall in love. I can have a family, a job. I can have failures and successes. Good. I'm building experience here, right? But what good does that do? At a certain point, when you've had all the lifetimes and all that kind of stuff, then what? Lets get to the point. When we have a higher self and it partitions a piece of self off and streams it into this human physical body, now we have agency and we have free will, but we're limited by all our physical limitations and restrictions of this physical body and this physical world, right? It's very limiting, very restrictive. But what happens when I sleep or meditate or alter my consciousness in some way? What happens whenever I purposely disassociate, dislodge my conscious awareness — which is normally like a VR headset for my soul and basically my awareness is usually within my headset and I'm seeing everything from a first-person point of view. What happens whenever I dissociate it from there and I move my conscious awareness outside of my body and then I can relocate it wherever I want through intention? Our soul, which was just residing in the external space in the non-physical spirit realm around Earth where all experiences are stored there with no real agency or free will, now has been anchored to a physical body. So now it has initiated this free will. And now it has transcended the physical limitations of the physical body in this physical Earth by disassociating from the physical body. So now you are anchored in the physical, so now you have agency, and now you are in the non-physical form, so you don't have any limitations. Anyway, your higher self needs you. Because every time it partitions a piece of itself and sends it on Earth, that sometimes whenever you die, instead of going back and reuniting with the whole, you get stuck in these belief system territories, the heaven and hell of these little virtual realities in the spirit world. And you get stuck there and then that keeps you from reuniting with the whole. And if your higher self is not whole, then you can't leave cycle. You can't because you're fragmented and you can't leave and leave part of your soul behind, of course. The higher self needs to have a physical body to carry out the missions through this physical body. It basically channeling through the physical body because now the physical body has anchored in this reality which gives them free will and agency that they don't have on the other side. This runs counter to what a lot of people think. A lot of people think the higher self is this angelic, magical entity that just has these abilities. And it does have a lot of abilities that we don't have in non-physical. But I don't get the impression and I might be wrong on this, it's kind of stuck and it needs our help. The higher self can forget that it was a consciousness before human existence. That means that at a certain point, not only do we wake up in the physical, but our consciousness on the other side wakes up too. Okay, cool. I will do that. I am taking responsibility for my existence. I'm the agent on the inside. Th existence is the amazing show. But it's deeper meaning is the higher self and human self connection and association, we need each other. And that, there's a good chance that we are this physical human right here. We're the tip of the spear when it comes to our human Earth life experiences. And that as much as we look up to the higher self for guidance, as much as we need them, they need us as well. The key is how to get out of here. The key is to graduate.